-Live Your Life-

xxsare_bearsxx @ 2006-06-07T17:20:00

2006-06-08T00:21:24Z

Friends Only

there, leave me alone.

Sorry if you should be on my friends list. If you want to be just let me know. Later.

edit...
There are about a billion posts after this one, but if you want to see them I have to trust you enough to add you. Should I?

xxsare_bearsxx @ 2006-05-26T17:48:00

2006-05-27T00:59:37Z

So I think it's about time for an lj post.

Yesterday it was 3 weeks until we graduate. How weird does this feel? Twelve more school days until graduation and I still don't think it's actually set in yet.

But all in all I could not be happier than I have been for the past 2 weeks. Maybe it was something that I was told that kind of gave me hope. Still, these past 2 weeks have been the best, and I'm sure as hell going to fight to keep them that way. Some of the most mundane things have happened, that would have been bad a bout 5 months ago, are now nothing to me anymore.

Like yesterday, Becky and I were going to Gov, I got to Thorsen's portable and went to step up. I totally missed the step, though, and landed right on my face, even scraped my chin a little. Anyways, last year or even at the beginning of this year, I would have been so embarrassed and it would have ruined my whole day. Instead I totally just started laughing, Becky and Thorsen are asking if I'm ok and I'm just laughing. Then of course I say, while laughing, "That's what I get for being Sarah Crawford." It was good.

So as of right now thing are good. I hope things are good for everyone else, too. I hope you make these last 3 weeks ones to remember.

I love everyone of you. No matter what.

xxsare_bearsxx @ 2006-05-07T22:00:00

2006-05-08T05:02:59Z

Don't let this feeling end.

This weekend was a good one, let that be enough.

Next weekend I get to see my sister in Portland.

This week I'm just going to try to get through as painless as possible.

I got my senior pictures in my wallets today.

That made me happy.

I don't want this weekend to end.

xxsare_bearsxx @ 2006-05-03T07:02:00

2006-05-03T14:05:28Z

AH geez, I'm just so tired. I went to JV baseball yesterday and trained, Jamie came with me.
It was sooo cold. Today is a double-header at Gig Harbor. If anyone in SM wants to come with me today you should because I'll be training again. Kim? EH EH?

SO yeah I just need about 324165475452 hours of sleep. Yeah that would be nice.

xxsare_bearsxx @ 2006-04-15T18:05:00

2006-04-16T01:16:03Z

Wow, in exactly 2 months today we graduate. It's getting so close, yet it's so far away. The past couple of days have been good actually. Things have occurred that now I'm ok with. Because really they shouldn't have surprised me in the first place. It's ok.

Found out on Thursday what certain people were saying about me. But really, they have no room whatsoever to talk about me like they know me. Because they don't. They don't know the things I've been through and the life I've lived. I'm not sure why they think they can do this but they don't even know. So you think I like someone? Too bad you are way off base and can't see passed your own insecurity to see what is really going on. How about the fact that once you leave this place you will see that the world will not cater to you. High School's almost over, get over yourself.

This pertains to no one, that I know of, that reads this.

I have spent the better part of the day listening to the Backstreet Boys and NSYNC, putting them in my iPod. So my day was been as exciting as the rain outside, so yeah.

Happy Easter tomorrow everyone.

xxsare_bearsxx @ 2006-04-14T22:04:00

2006-04-15T05:06:04Z

Will is pretty much hot. It has been a while since I've seen him. But it's like he gets better every time. So hot. Whew. Yeah pretty much.

xxsare_bearsxx @ 2006-04-13T22:17:00

2006-04-14T05:18:21Z

SIGH... this is not good.

Crap. Not again.

xxsare_bearsxx @ 2006-04-12T18:47:00

2006-04-13T01:53:15Z

Up until about a half hour ago my day was kind of just, 'eh'. But it's gotten way better since then.

Walking in silence and it not being awkward, and everything being ok. Pretty good if you ask me. It was good, more than good. I want to do it again. But next time, we'll talk. And it'll be good, too. =)

I started believing in it again.

2006-04-10T03:46:18Z

I don't want you to think that this is corny or anything. Just let me say it and then you think about it.

I'm starting to believe that true love really does exist. Not saying that I'm the one experiencing it, since I'm not. I've just been seeing a lot of things lately.

There was this couple sitting in front of me in church this morning. They are probably both in there mid to late fifties. Well, at first it was kind of annoying, they were kind of all over eachother, not in a gross way at all. Just sitting really close so this I couldn't see Pastor. Then I saw the way they looked at eachother. I don't know how to descride it, but you could tell how much they loved eachother.

That was one..

The other day I was driving to get money and gas. I was going through my neighborhood there was this little old couple walking hand-in-hand. The wife had dropped her umbrella on the ground and the old man stooped to pick it up for her he handed it to her and then gave her a kiss on the check and took her hand and kept walking. I was so busy watching them that I wasn't really paying attention to the road. I was in the middle of the street, but no other cars were around, so it was ok. But I was like, that's what I want. I want to be old and have my husband pick up my umbrella when I drop it, kiss my cheek, and take my hand and never let go.

So then yesterday when I was getting my senior pictures taken, we were down at Illahee for the last pictures. There was another little old couple, the lady was very hunched over and was having a hard time walking. Her husband had a little dog with him and was taking it for a walk. But she was moving very slow. He stopped and pulled the dog back and waited for her. He took her hand and kissed it and they went walking, very slowly for her.

If you think these things are stupid and sappy, then you wasted your time reading this. But true love only happens once. All these people have found it and it just made me start wondering if it's something that everyone will find. And right now I have no doubt that everyone will.

So maybe I am a sap. Deal with it. It's who I am.

xxsare_bearsxx @ 2006-03-22T20:01:00

2006-03-23T04:02:39Z

I hate cooked carrots.

I'm sick I feel awful.

F*ck prom.

xxsare_bearsxx @ 2006-03-18T22:45:00

2006-03-19T06:43:06Z

Today was a very loooong day.

Certain things, people, ok boy, kept popping in my mind today, and I was more than baffled by it. Because I had promised myself that it wouldn't happen. I'm sorry if I make no sense, I know what I'm talking about.

Long trip for baseball today, both JV and varsity lost. My iPod's battery died on the way home, I was devastated. Not really though. I'm just really tired and don't even care that I'm not doing anything tonight because I'm just not in the mood for anything.

Whew, so it was a long day and now I'm going to end it. Good night. I have to get up and go to church in the morning. So, later everyone.

3 MONTHS

2006-03-16T03:30:55Z

So I admit, I haven't been keeping my promise and updating my lj. For this I am sorry.

I haven't been gone that long, but what's with all the anonymous comments? For one who ever is doing this CANNOT spell. Biggest pet peeve that I have. Two, who, besides someone who doesn't have a life, would even say horrible things like this. They don't even matter. Losers.

Anyways, yesterday was the first baseball game. We lost but not by much. It was raining and our dugout was not covered. Who the heck builds a field and does not cover the dugouts? And there was an opening all along the fence, so of course we almost got hit. Thank God our guys have pretty good aim and didn't throw the ball in the dugout but like once, and I think it was because the ball was wet.

Prom is totally coming up. I don't have a date yet and I don't know if I will. I mean I really want one. But it's not going to weigh that much on my mind. I have 2 dresses picked out, I'm not sure which on to choose but I'll let you all know when I do.

So...
EXACTLY 3 MONTHS UNTIL WE GRADUATE!!!!!
YAY!!!!!!!!!

It felt like it should have been Friday today, but it was only Wednesday. =( It's ok though.
Baseball tomorrow at Fairgrounds come cheer on the guys.
Later everyone.

xxsare_bearsxx @ 2006-03-05T17:37:00

2006-03-06T01:43:50Z

So I was on my MYSPIZZLE today and I realized that I never write in this thing anymore, and that is a shame.

Baseball started last week. It feels good to be back around baseball. I love it.

I can't wait to go to college. I just can't wait. There's a little over 3 months until we graduate and I'm so excited about it. There's no other way to describe it. I just can't wait.

Well, that's all I'm going to write right now. So I'll catch you all later.

BAH!!

2006-02-14T01:18:00Z

I'M SOOOOO HAPPY!!!!!!

xxsare_bearsxx @ 2006-02-07T22:05:00

2006-02-08T06:05:40Z

Myspace is being crap

xxsare_bearsxx @ 2006-01-30T13:42:00

2006-01-30T21:43:41Z

STATE!!!!!!!!

We're talking a 3 day week for Sarah here! Yeah!

We're goinf to...

2006-01-26T01:43:19Z

DISTRICTS BABY!!!!!!!!!!!
YEAH!!!

My day

2006-01-02T18:00:28Z

Today my day will consist of government homework, government homework, oh, and even more government homework.

I'm so screwed, because I'm such a procrastinator.

wow

2005-12-24T01:29:38Z

I can't believe that tomorrow is Christmas Eve. It's crazy how fast things are going. Soon we'll be graduating, scary.
Tomorrow we'll go over to my Aunt and Uncle's house with the rest of the Crawford clan. Should be fun.
But is it really a day before Christmas Eve? For reals? Dang.
Um, I read something early today. It REALLY pissed me off. Like whoa.
One for the fact that I thought maybe she had matured, boy was I wrong. She's a dirty litle whore and will always be one.
Two, where does she get off raging on me. Um look at her, she's the one that f-ed her life up. Not me.
Anyways. I'm here at home. Nothing really to do. Just wrap one last present. So I'm going to do that.

Talk to me if you want. AIM: lovestodream1117

xxsare_bearsxx @ 2005-12-18T08:49:00

2005-12-18T16:50:33Z

Don't tempt me..

Because I will shoot you in the face.

Yeh, ok.

hahah

2005-12-15T01:10:58Z

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

Last Friday I ate my brussel sprouts (1 points). In November I bought porn for blushing_4_you (-10 points). In February I committed genocide... Sorry about that, xchickenxmeatx (-5000 points). In October I helped imlosttonight see the light (8 points). Last Monday I punched mrs_sam_weasley in the arm (-10 points).

Overall, I've been naughty (-5011 points). For Christmas I deserve a moldy sandwich!

Sincerely,
xxsare_bearsxx

How's that porn working out for you Kim dear? HAHA, ok, I'm done now.

This week had better go fast...but it probably won't.

2005-12-11T01:19:02Z

I really can't wait for this next week to be over. I'm tired of it. Tired of trying to please people. I'm not even going to do it anymore, if you have a problem with me that's your fault. I haven't done anything to deserve it. I've been a good friend.

I can't wait for Christmas Break. I really need to get away from it.

Today my dad and I went to breakfast and cut our Christmas tree. It was an over all good day.

Last night I got my Letterman's jacket. I really like it. It's really warm.

I've decided that I really miss being in the training room and I can't wait until bowling is over so that I can be in there again. It's strange not being ion there. Plus, I miss spending time with the lovely Kim. I miss our talks, too Kim. Things have changed since football season, and I really want them to go back to the way they were.

Tomorrow my dad and I are going to the Seahawk's game. I can't wait. I really can't wait. it's been like a year since we've been to a football game together, it should be good.

Things are going to change, I'm going to make sure of that. Just you watch.

Oh wow

2005-12-03T23:59:49Z

So today was such an lj post day.

Last night I told Jimmy that I like him. He then responded saying that he doesn't like me that way. I figured that. And I was hurt but not too shocked. I really didn't expected him to. So I figured that I wouldn't have to see him until at least Monday, and without a doubt it would be awkward.

So I go to lunch, like I do every Saturday with my parents and grandpa, and we're almost done eating and I look up and he's in Dairy Queeen. I thought I was going to have a panic attack. I swear. I thought I had at least two days to find the nerve to face him. Guess I had to find it pretty fast. I went into the bathroom and stared at the mirror, and thought to myself, "what are the f-ing chances of that?" I came out of the bathroom and he looked at me and kind of did that whole I-can't-believe-this-is-happening smile and wave and I gave the same.

Then we got ready to leave and I turned to him in the booth he was sitting and said, "I told you it would be awkward." Then I told him that it really didn't matter and that his friendship means more to me than anything. I hope he realizes that. I just couldn't believe it. I was like shit.

Yeh, well that was an eventful day. Then I talked to Ally and Becky. While cleaning my grandpa's house.

So, yeh, exciting, or not really, try like terrifying.

Karma Chameleon

2005-12-02T05:23:09Z

Karma karma karma karma karma chameleon
You come and go
You come and go

It's stuck in my head

ohh dear

2005-11-26T19:09:16Z

This morning consisted of me making my toast while a shouting match went down in my house. I was just putting some jam on my toast and minding my own business. I try not to get in the middle of things like that, and today I didn't . I just sat at the dining room table eating my toast. I hate things like this.
My mother is so inconsiderate, she starts things and then leaves. So then arguments erupted over things that she has caused. So then she's not here and then obviously it's not her fault, when really it is, because she was the one that egged everyone on and made descions that were not discussed with the rest of us. Then we get angry and she blames it all on us. Typical.

A peaceful Thanksgiving? Yeh right.